Monday, October 8, 2012

Step One - PERMANENT!


When I announced that Maxim and Andriy had been ‘found’, I also told you that I had a post in progress with some very exciting news of my own… Over two months later, that half finished post still sits in my drafts folder. I’m sorry; I didn’t mean to leave you hanging! Life has been crazy busy and as you’ve all figured out by now, I’ve kind of lost my will to blog. But I’ve decided that today is the day – God has been so good to me and it’s time for me to share what He’s been doing with whoever’s still reading…

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A year and a half ago I was in Ukraine praying about what God would have me do next. I had made a six month commitment to love on as many orphans as I could get my hands on but right from the beginning I was open to however long God would have me stay, be that 6 months, a year or even a lifetime. So, as my time in Ukraine began drawing to a close I was praying about whether God would have me stay on, go somewhere else or return home. Eventually I heard that still, small voice whisper to my heart - "Go home and prepare to adopt. I am going to give you children of your own." Leaving ‘my’ kids behind was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do but with a promise like that, there was another part of me that couldn’t wait to board that plane.

I arrived home in February, 2011 and after a couple months of rest I began looking for a job which would allow me to provide for the children God had for me. I had this epiphany in Ukraine that I thought was so brilliantly obvious that it must have been from God. Given that my educational background was in social work and that my passion was for adoption, what better job could there be for me than an adoption social worker? I knew that jobs in adoption are difficult to come by but I also knew that if it was where God wanted me, He would make a way. I researched, I prayed and I applied to every adoption-related organization in Quebec and Ontario. As the months passed and doors stayed closed, I began to apply to other not-adoption-related jobs that interested me. Finally, out of sheer desperation eight months after returning home, I applied to every child protection agency in Eastern Ontario. On my list of job possibilities, if working in adoption was ‘Plan A’, working in child protection in Quebec (where I actually live) would have been ‘Plan Z’ – working in child protection in Ontario was not even on the list! Ten months after arriving home I was offered a job in child protection approximately one hour from where I live. There were a lot of things about it that didn’t seem like a good fit but God gave me complete peace that I was to take the job. After so many months of searching I was extremely grateful to have a job but I was not excited.

To be honest, for the first several months I hated it. I did not like the work and I just could not see how I could do this job and adopt as a single parent – the commute was long, the hours were crazy and unpredictable and most of all, it was unstable. I was hired on a one year contract and was told that, most likely, after completing my first year I would be offered a second contract and then hopefully become permanent after that. All I heard was that it would be two whole years before I could even begin to think about adopting! Looking back now I just shake my head… Will I ever learn to trust God’s good plans for me? Thankfully, God gave me an attitude adjustment last spring and since then, I have actually come to love my job! I have come to love the work I do and walk away many days feeling like I have been able to help families make real, positive changes for their children. As for the commute, it is 100% stress-free highway driving (no traffic!) and a great way to unwind, process and spend time talking to God after a long day. Finally, in a completely unexpected turn of events, a new position was created in the agency this past summer and as of July 9th I am now a permanent employee! I could go on all day with all the little (and big!) God stories that have me in awe of God’s wisdom and goodness for placing me in this job. The job I once thought was a mistake has actually turned out to be a perfect fit for me and I can’t wait to see how He’s going to work the rest out.

“‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,’ declares the LORD. ‘As the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:8-9)

On this day of Thanksgiving, I am most thankful for the truth of that verse. That and the fact that God never gives up on me and always works out His plans for me, even if He has to drag me along kicking and screaming…

So… Let the fun begin!!! Precious child of mine, hold on just a while longer, your Mommy is on her way!

Stay tuned for Step Two – My Own Place!