Saturday, January 22, 2011
As I enter into my last full week here, I know that it is going to be a week of difficult goodbyes. Saying goodbye to kids whom I have spent months holding and caring for, kids whom I have come to love as my own – it is something I have done many times before only this time, it’s different… In the past I have left “my” kids with people who loved and cared for them and the sadness I felt was more about me and how much I would miss them than it was about them. This time, although I will miss these kids just as much as all the others, my sorrow and my heartache is more about them than it is about me. This time I am leaving my kids in circumstances that break my heart. After I leave, there will be no one to hold them, sing to them or pray over them. There will be no one to smother their faces with kisses or tickle them until they laugh so hard that their faces turn red. No one will take the time to stop and kiss their boo-boos or give them their undivided attention. Some of my kids may never again be held in loving arms or receive a gentle kiss on their forehead. They will spend their days laying immobile in a crib or banging their heads against the bars and then, if they survive long enough, they will live out the rest of their days in a mental institution. Many times over the past several weeks I have been brought to tears as I held or played with my kids, thinking about how little time I have left with them and I know that many tears will be shed this week as I start saying goodbye to them one by one. Please pray for my kids. Pray that God’s presence, His comfort and His peace would envelope them. Pray that the little bit of love I have been able to show them would stay with them and that they would know that they are treasured. Finally, pray for families for these kids as it is the only chance they have at a future. It is a nearly impossible request as most of them are not even listed for adoption but nothing is impossible for God. Pray that He would move every obstacle to getting them listed and that He would have families waiting, ready to bring them home.